Happy Birthday to ME

Well, today is my birthday!  Am I excited, NO.  I am usually depressed on my birthday, I thought that today, perhaps would be different.  I thought "Hey, we have been having a very difficult and complicated time in our marriage lately," so I thought, if anytime or anything is going to get better today would be the day he would might do something special, for me.  Right?  NOT... I don't ask for much, actually I didn't ask for anything, that is just what I got too, nothing, zilch, zip, notta, nothing!  Not even a card.  I even woke up alone this morning, we are sleeping separate lately, my choice. That is another story, but after 3 years of being lonely, (and in bed) I thought that doing that might give him a hint that I am so tired of the way we have been living for the past 3 years.  ANYways, it is now 4 pm, I have sat here all day, he knows that I want to do something and he mentions " well, I thought that You mentioned about doing something tomorrow?"  I did, but, my goodness, I thought, he would at least get me a birthday card, at the very least...
Well, I just got back from going on a walk.  We went for a walk in a familiar place actually I often, but I haven't been there in about a month or so, it is very very beautiful and quite, except for today.  We got caught in a severe thundershower with hail the size of a golf ball!  I got my exercise in running through the woods and trails to get to the car, the hail actually hurt my shoulders when I was running. 
After we got home we cooked a couple of lobsters and had some clams.  I guess that is better than nothing.  No, he didn't get me a mushy card or any card for that matter, no, I didn't get a gift, he says, us spending a day without fighting is a gift enough, or something in those line of words.  But, anyways, I am a year older, not another year wiser, but I will figure things out in time.  Time, WOW, just thinking, how fast my life has really gone!

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